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September 18, 2007

Two-handed typing!

New mommy-hood has left me with little time for such luxuries as typing rapidly, with both hands at the same time. Most of my computer time over the past three weeks has been spent clicking and surfing, or hunt-and-peck typing, while holding a nursing baby with one arm (and sometimes a knee, for extra support). Milo has been a hungry little guy as he works hard to grow into his long little body, and doesn't seem to be a huge fan of the whole sleeping concept. We've been working hard to get him on a loose schedule, though, and it's paying off right now with a lovely mid-day nap. I should be sleeping myself, or eating lunch, or doing laundry, or, most important, writing one of the bajillion thank-you notes that remain unwritten.

(Ah, precious two-handed time. How fleeting it is. The remainder of this post will be written with babe in arms. The author should not be held responsible for typos, run-on sentences, or general incoherence.)

So, where was I? Parenthood. We're all adjusting, and Milo seems to be thriving. He's grown so dramatically from the tiny little chicken-legged baby into a long, lean, chubby-cheeked guy, and he's more and more alert every day. He and I have been going for wonderful walks most days, and he's starting to want to look around at the world rather than just sleep snugly in the pouch or wrap.
He seems to be going through his three-week growth spurt now, and I'm excited to see what new tricks he'll have for us on the other side of it.

That's about all I can string together for you at this point, but here are some recent photos, the product of several, mostly failed attempts to get some decent shots for the birth announcement.

August 30, 2007

Introducing . . .

The baby formerly known as Crusher! Milo Felix Cohen Freiburger entered the world at 7:19 p.m. on August 27, 2007. He weighed 6lbs, 13 oz, and measured 20 inches long. He is absolutely gorgeous (according to his completely unbiased parents and grandparents), and has spent his first few days eating like a champion and sleeping reasonably competently.

A full birth story is forthcoming, but suffice to say that labor and delivery were intense, exhilarating, and one of the most incredible experiences of my entire life. Steve coached me through four hours of strong, Pitocin-induced contractions, massaging my painful hips and back, keeping me focused, and reassuring me that I could keep going, even when I thought I was ready to demand an epidural. He then supported me, both physically and emotionally, through an hour of hard-core pushing. Just when I thought I couldn't keep going, Milo emerged into the world and landed in his daddy's waiting hands.

Much credit is also due to an amazing medical team, particularly nurse Karen, who was a constant supportive and helpful presence, better than any doula I could possibly have hired. Thanks to the OB and nurse Karen, I had only a couple of tiny internal tears, which are mostly healed already. We arrived home yesterday afternoon and are all settled in. We've even gotten a little sleep, thanks to my mother's extraordinary overnight support. Milo, mom, and I went for a long walk today, and I feel fantastic. He's sleeping contentedly in a Peanut Shell now, giving me a chance to bring you up to date.

Here is a first look at our sweet boy. A full set of shots from his first few days is available here.

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August 27, 2007

Putting the "E" in EDD.

That's Estimated Due Date, for those of you who don't spend your time obsessively reading about all things pregnancy- and baby-related. Estimated, because the majority of babies decline to emerge on the magic, appointed day. In my family, the tendency has been to show up early, and somehow I never fully accepted that the 40-week point would arrive with a baby still safely ensconced in my belly. Crusher, however, is clearly his or her father's child, and is in no hurry to vacate its comfy quarters.

And, why, yes, we have tried _______ (insert your favorite natural labor-induction method here). Any and all of which have triggered sporadic, relatively painless contractions, but no meaningful uterine activity.

Today, instead of having a baby, we slept late, went for a nice long walk, trekked out to a bike shop in furtherance of Steve's goal of demoing every possible high-end frame and component set-up available in the Metro area, and bought an iPod speaker docking thingie for the labor room. I ate eggplant and pineapple, and drank raspberry leaf tea. Nope, still pregnant.

Tomorrow, on the other hand, is August 27. For years, a widely believed hoax has been circulating about that magical date, on which Mars supposedly will be extra-close to the Earth.  My mother-in-law called me today to announce that tomorrow would be the day, courtesy of the double phenomenon of the impending full moon and the (alleged) Mars Spectacular. The full moon does have reputed labor-inducing powers, though, so perhaps she is right. I certainly wouldn't complain.

For now, I'm lazing about, feeling tired and cranky and increasingly anxious to get this baby out of me already. Here's what it looks like:
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UPDATE: Still Estimated, but awfully close. My water broke at 10:30 p.m. last night! Now we're just waiting for the contractions to ramp up, and trying to get some sleep. Not doing a very good job of the latter, at least on my part, as this update reveals. But, wow - we're having an actual baby, and soon!

August 22, 2007

Waiting for Crusher.

Maternity leave is fun! At least, maternity leave without a baby to care for is fun, filled with leisurely lunches, late morning walks, piddling around the internet, and playing mah johngg with my mom's friends. I suspect that a few weeks of this would drive me bonkers, but the last few days of rest and relaxation have done wonders for my stress level and have me feeling mentally and physically ready for Crusher to turn my world upside down.

Things wrapped up nicely at work, with my docket well under control for the next few months. I'm monitoring my cases and intend to continue to do so (though certainly with less zeal and obsessive frequency, I'm sure), and have already dashed off some client correspondence from afar. I'm trying to keep the lawyer part of my brain functioning even while the mommy part kicks in. We'll see how that goes.

And now, the real waiting game begins. My brother and I cooperatively arrived quite early, as did my nephews and most of my cousins. Crusher seems to be on a slightly more leisurely schedule, apparently taking after Daddy's side of the family. At D-day minus 4, my doctor says everything looks optimal for labor and delivery, but I have yet to experience any real contractions. Once we get some of those going, the show should be well on the road.

This is one of the most surreal experiences I've ever had. Right now, I have an enormous belly, from which strange, angular protrusions emerge throughout the day, along with assorted minor aches. At any given moment, all of this could shift into acute labor pains, followed (hopefully quickly and with little ado - a girl can dream, anyway) by the arrival of an ENTIRE BABY, who will come home and live with us. So weird.

And so thrilling. I've spent most of my pregnancy actively forbidding myself to imagine how labor and delivery will unfold, or to develop expectations for what my child will be like. For a control freak planner like me, this is probably excellent training for parenthood. But now that L&D&baby are almost here, I'm just itching - tingling - with anticipation, and so, so curious to finally know how it's all going to happen.

I'll keep you posted!

August 12, 2007

Long overdue.

Nope, no baby yet. My blogging neglect cannot be attributed to any such worthy excuse. But, wow, have we been busy. Between putting the finishing touches on our pre-baby house projects, work, family visitors, and assorted social obligations, Steve and I have been spreading ourselves pretty thin. As a result of all this chaos, I've decided that next Friday will be my last day at work until December 3. Now I'm counting on Crusher to wait at least a few more days so that I can catch up on sleep, get my hair cut, and get just the teensiest bit bored before he or she turns our world upside down forever.

And, happily, things are pretty much done. We have a few little things left to do in the nursery, but it's certainly baby-functional at this point.

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We've been generously showered by family, friends, and co-workers, and have acquired a wealth of hand-me-downs that will ensure that Crusher is fully clothed until he or she is at least 6 months old. As we get closer and closer to the reality of parenthood, I realize more and more how fortunate we are to have this incredible community of people around us, ready to welcome our child into the world. Crusher will be surrounded by so much love and joy, from so many different and wonderful people. What a lucky little baby!

Changing gears, I know that I promised ages ago to tell you about some of the Foundation Fighting Blindness's research that has tangible promise for my eyes. Here are just a few of the projects the FFB is funding:

  • An FFB-funded study a few years ago led to the identification of the gene that causes my specific form of Usher Syndrome. My family and I participated in that study, which identified the Usher Type III-causing gene particular to Ashkenazi Jews
  • Researchers funded by the Foundation Fighting Blindness are having great success in preclinical studies of stem cell therapies to make photoreceptor cells, which are essential for vision, and to enable those cells integrate into the retina.
  • An FFB-funded research team from the University of Wisconsin and the University of Utah has used human neural stem cells cells derived from the brain to rescue vision in rats with retinal degenerative disease.
  • An investigative team funded by the FFB has demonstrated that nanoparticles may be a safe and effective way to correct genetic variations that cause RP and other retinal degenerative diseases. The researchers have used nanoparticles to restore vision in mice with RP. The nanoparticles were produced by compressing DNA with the corrective gene and coating it in a waxy, slippery substance. These particles were then injected into the retinas of the mice to deliver the gene. The treated mice showed both functional and structural improvement in their retinas.

  • An FFB-funded investigation has used human umbilical cord tissue (a substance that is normally discarded after birth, so does not generally raise ethical concerns) to rescue vision in rats with retinal degenerative disease.

These are just a few of  the FFB's ongoing efforts. More information on these and other research projects is available at www.blindness.org. And of course, if you'd like to contribute to our fundraising efforts for VisionWalk 2007, just click here.

I have a feeling I won't be posting much (again) before the baby arrives, although I may manage a post or two. But I promise (FOR REAL!) a full report, photos included, once the kiddo is safely in our arms.

July 02, 2007

As promised.

I present, The Crusher-Belly, in various stages of rotundity.

Here, to assuage my vain side (and hopefully motivate me to get back into shape post-partum), is the baseline belly, at 4 weeks gestation:

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Towards the end of the first trimester, at 12 weeks, things started pooching out a wee bit.

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By 18 weeks, the belly was starting to take on a life of its own (and around the same time, Crusher started making his or her presence known to me on a regular basis, providing both reassurance and entertainment)

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A few weeks later, we headed to Roatan, but you've already seen the floating-belly photos. Here's one from the week before we left (and documenting my failed attempt to turn Steve's shorts into maternity attire).

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At 27 weeks, I was still climbing, but not for much longer. By this point, I was a pretty pathetically comical sight on the walls, limited by size, strength, and lung capacity to only the easiest routes.

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Which brings us to the present, 32 weeks and counting.I I'm feeling LARGE now - slow and heavy and hot, particularly as we head into our umpteenth consecutive day of temperatures in the 90s.

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But for the most part, I still feel really good, and I'm trying to stay as active as my body says it can tolerate, with a mix of moderate walking, swimming, and yoga. Crusher continues entertain us constantly with the belly-shaking antics of its baby disco routine. I feel so very lucky to be having this experience!

If you'd like to see the complete set of belly photos, they are here. Any guesses as to Crusher's boyness or girlness (or other qualities) that these photos motivate you to hazard may be memorialized in the comments. I may try to create some sort of baby-stats-guessing pool, if I can figure out how.

For what it's worth, Steve and I really have no idea as to the baby's sex. Steve's baby dreams have had me birthing everything from four-year-old twins to a very cute kitten, and now seem to be leaning girlward. My own, relatively few dreams on the subject have involved either boy-babies or cats. Since the ultrasound photos are decidedly un-feline, the fact that both of us are dreaming of cat-babies probably has more to do with our familiarity with that particular species of small, mewling creature, dependent upon us for food, snuggles, and poop management.

As for the VisionWalk, we are already nearing $5,000, almost a third of the way to our ambitious fundraising goal. Several folks have asked me for more specifics about the FFB's research that may be relevant to my situation, and I will try to post something about that soon. Thanks to everyone who has given already!

June 26, 2007

VisionWalk 2007 - The Challenge Begins!

Once again, Steve, my parents, and I (together with Crusher, of course, who by then will have shed his or her hardnosed utero name for something more baby-appropriate) will be doing the VisionWalk pledge walk for the Foundation Fighting Blindness (FFB).  The FFB is an extraordinary tax-exempt organization that raises millions of dollars each year to fund research at leading universities, hospitals and other facilities around the world to find the causes and possible cures for many retinal diseases, including macular degeneration, Stargardt's disease, and the one that particularly grabs our attention, Retinitis Pigmentosa (RP).

If you've been reading along here, you probably know that I have Usher Syndrome, the particular form of RP that causes not only vision loss but also hearing loss (talk about a double whammy!). I've chronichled the dramatic improvement to my hearing as a result of my cochlear implant surgery last year, but my vision continues its slow but inexorable deterioration. I haven't written about it much lately, because there's not much to say right now other than "It sucks. It gets worse. Wish they'd find a treatment already."  I am still fortunate to lead a full and active life, but RP/Usher do have a massive - and increasingly challenging - impact on my life, and the lives of millions of others. We want to eliminate, or at least ameliorate, that impact for me and for everyone else suffering from retinal degenerative diseases.

Which brings me to my pitch:  I would very very much appreciate your help in this fight.  The second annual Colorado Visionwalk will take place on Saturday, September 29, 2007. Our team, Usher's Mushers, will be striving to surpass our astounding results from the inaugural 2006 event for which the generosity of our friends and family (including many blindinsight.com readers) helped us to raise over $11,000 and take home the "Flying Pig" award for the top-grossing team.  This year, we have set an ambitious team goal of $15,000, but we think that, with your help, we can reach this mark and help ensure that the FFB's sight-saving research continues to produce hope - and results - for me and for millions of others. 

You can contribute to our efforts by visiting http://www.fightblindness.org/site/TR?pg=personal&fr_id=1410&px=1079010. Your contribution of any size will make a tangible difference in furthering the FFB's crucial mission.

If you are local, we would also love to have you join our team, help the Usher's Mushers reach its fundraising goal, and walk with us on September 29. If you click the link above, you will find more information about how to sign up (let me know if you have any problems doing so). This will be Crusher's first foray into social activism, and we're very excited to show him or her how fun and satisfying it can be.

Thank you for your continued support. (And I promise a "real" blog post soon. If I get enough requests, I'll even post photos of The Belly, now 31 weeks and grooooooowing).

May 27, 2007

We can never sell this house.

Steve and I are fortunate to have a house with quite a few bedrooms. The kitchen is tiny, the floor plan is broken up inefficiently, but for purposes of creating space for a baby to come live with us, we're in good shape.

Steve's wonderful parents came to visit us for 10 days, and are helping us turn the basement into an exercise/entertainment area and the current exercise/entertainment room into a nursery. I spent the first couple of days of their visit in a panic, as it seemed that rooms were getting demolished more than remodeled and the list of Things To Do grew ever longer. Steve finally talked me off the ledge, and reminded me that (a) doing it yourself is a lot more satisfying (not to mention cheaper) than hiring a professional; (b) doing it yourself means it will take twice as long as you anticipate, and will involve three times as many swear words; and (c) the baby won't care if the basement isn't finished by August. At that point, I decided to relax, let go of my control-freaky tendencies, and let the Freiburgers work their home improvement magic.

The results have exceeded my wildest expectations. Sure, the simple utility sink in the laundry room took almost a week to install. But the stylish new lights now turn on (and off!), the drywall is almost completely hung, and the basement is slowly turning into a wonderful new functional space in our house, rather than simply a repository for boxes and beer-making equipment.

And the real masterpiece is upstairs. For months, Steve has been musing about creating a mural depicting a scene from "Where The Wild Things Are." We both adore Maurice Sendak's magical illustrations, and loved the idea of bringing the wild rumpus into Crusher's room. But one of us (and that would be the pregnant, cranky, control-freaky one) thought that it would just be too much to undertake painting an intricate mural in the midst of basement remodeling, floor refinishing, and furniture relocating (not to mention gestating). But Steve insisted that it could be done, and promised that, while it might take him most of the next three months, he would have the mural finished by the time Crusher makes his or her appearance. And so, I relented, figuring I could always paint over the partially completed mural if necessary.

My mother-in-law and I painted the room a happy, bright sky blue base color. Then, using a technique I learned from some of my imaginary internet friends, we used an overhead projector to beam transparencies of the appropriate WTWTA pages onto the wall. On Tuesday, my mom and Steve's worked together to trace the images onto the wall, and then spent the rest of the week painting them.

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They took some liberties with the colors to make them more nursery-friendly and to mesh better with the overall room color (and to dress one of the creatures in Packers garb), and they improvised a bit on the grass and the trees.

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They embellished Max's crown with rhinestones, and his pajamas with buttons:

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And they finished the whole darn thing.

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This morning, apparently having spent most of the night thinking about the mural, my mom called with an idea. What if we carried the treetops around the rest of the room, to create a unified border? Steve and I approved, and Eileen was willing to make it happen.

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This finishing touch really pulls the whole room together!

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With the mural completed, Steve is now free to spend the next three months drywalling the basement reading up on baby care climbing and cycling. More important, it gives us a one-of-a-kind nursery, filled with tangible evidence of Crusher's grandmothers' amazing talents, and their great love for this little person-to-be. I'm so, so glad I didn't talk them out of doing it.

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May 25, 2007

One year later.

The one-year anniversary of my cochlear implant surgery slipped by, almost unnoticed. But a couple of days later, when I realized it had passed, I felt a rush of emotion as I thought about just how dramatically the implant has improved my hearing, and with it, my quality of life. (Of course, at 27 weeks pregnant, it doesn't take much for me to feel a rush of emotion, but whatever.)

Earlier this month, I attended a full week of arguments and presentations at the Tenth Circuit. Because we were on vacation the preceding week, I had forgotten to make arrangements for the court to set up the amplification system. And because the arguments I wanted to hear were in several different courtrooms, sometimes on the same day, it would have been difficult, if not impossible, for the court staff to provide me with amplification for everything, anyway. So I decided to "fly solo," and to see just how much I could hear without any assistance beyond my CI and my hearing aid.

I heard everything, or almost. Even sitting a few rows back in the spectator gallery, I was able to hear and understand most of the judges' questions, and most of the attorneys' responses. There was a mumbler here and there who was difficult for me to follow, but for the most part, I heard and understood and followed along. I can't quite articulate how incredible it felt to know that I can now walk into the courtroom on a moment's notice to support a colleague or hear a particular argument. Rush of emotion, anyone?

I've also been doing prenatal yoga for the past couple of months. You may recall the last time I took an organized yoga class. That experience was so frustrating and demoralizing that for the past year or so, I've been doing yoga on my own, with videotaped instruction. But now, having finally figured out how to keep my CI from flopping around when I do inversions, and with my pregnant hips crying out for some serious stretching, I decided to venture back into the studio.

To my delight, I'm loving it. I can hear virtually everything the instructor says, even when she moves around the room, even when I'm in a position from which I can't see her or any of my classmates, and even during shavasana. For the first time in my life, I understand why it is actually relaxing to just lie there at the end of yoga practice, because I am no longer anxiously trying to figure out what the instructor is saying or listening for a cue that it's time to open my eyes and sit up again.

These are just two recent examples of how the CI has made my life easier, and opened new doors for me. In an unrelated context, Steve and I were talking today about health insurance, and recalling how much we had to pay out-of-pocket for the surgery. A year ago, this seemed like a great deal of money to shell out for something with such unknown benefits. Today, Steve called it the best $X,000 we could have possibly spent.

I'm pretty pleased with our new windows, which cost a bit more than that, but overall, I have to agree with him.

May 06, 2007

Tan and rested . . .

. . . though perhaps not quite ready to resume the hustle and bustle of normal life tomorrow morning.

Somehow, Steve and I survived February, March, and April. Those hectic months brought us doubled-up deadlines, a scary-ass exam and a number of work-related all-nighters (for Steve), an enormous and complex brief on a terrifyingly short turnaround (for me), and plenty of minor complications.

Our reward: Roatan. Eight days of pure, unadulterated relaxation in a Caribbean paradise. We snorkeled, often multiple times a day, through the extensive reef system that lay just a few flipper kicks off our beach. Among our marine life discoveries were a five-foot nurse shark, lazing in the sandy reef-bed maybe 20 feet offshore, a sea turtle winging gracefully through the deeper water, a shy eel poking its blue head out from the coral, several yellow stingrays, and countless varieties of fish. A huge school of stripey Sergeant Majors hung out in one particular spot, swarming around us each time we passed through, swimming within a hair's breadth of our masks before darting around us. On each excursion, we saw something new, and each time, we ventured further into the Blue. Alas, we never did manage to buy an underwater camera, so you'll just have to take my word for it.

When we weren't snorkeling, we were sipping frosty beverages (non-alcoholic, in my case) in one of the many open-air bars lining West Bay Beach, as the near-constant breeze took the edge off the Caribbean sun. The rest of the time, we lazed about, reading and dozing and wandering. Our single sea kayaking expedition ended badly, as Steve's boat sprung holes and sank. Fortunately, we were not far off shore at the time. Unfortunately, we were right over the reef.

We left our little West Bay paradise a few times, trying our dining luck in the more bustling town of West End and succumbing to the touristy offerings of Anthony's Key, with its dolphin encounters, zip-line, and wildlife park. But mostly, we stayed put, preferring to stroll down the beach just after sunset, freshly showered but still barefoot, to one of West Bay's shoreside dining establishments. The food, alas, was nothing to write home about (and was frustratingly expensive, particularly by Central American standards), with the exception of a couple of grilled seafood meals and some delicious homemade tortillas.

We returned home late last night, to freezing rain and lost suitcases. The baggage showed up this morning, though the sun did not. Long pants, outerwear, and shoes returned to our lives today, bringing reality into sharp focus.

Here are our photos, taken on the few occasions when we bothered to take the camera out of the room. Ah, Paradise.

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